Tired and exhausted....
I REALLY REALLY NEED SLEEP!
if only i could just go into hibernation or something and wake up only when i feel like it....
School is stressful man...


30 JAN 07 (my blog's date problematic)

Didn't go to school today...actually almost went to school...
took the bus to the school bus stop den took the bus home again coz wasn't feeling too good...
kinda weird though coz i was like the only person around wearing sch uniform...
anw, slept the whole morning and i'm feeling better now =)...
i think i'm just sick of sch
I used to think staying positive would help...i guess that thought just ended up blinding me...


BEfore you start reading, be sure to play the music on the top left hand corner...Mad World by Gary Jules and Michael Andrews...even though it's kinda old...it's a really cool and nice song even though it's a little emo...=D

Yo ppl! hahas...just reached home not long ago coz i went out to buy another pair of sch shoes...anw, i ended up buying like size 41 okay! omg...like my feet are freakin big !! hahas...but i needed a bigger size coz my feet are kinda like broad but not very long lah...so maybe i'll consider binding my feet if the need arouses...harhar juz joking i know that's lame...

Anw, i was reading the previous post i blogged last night and i seriously felt that it was kinda crappy and abit emo lahs...and it was really different from how i usually blog...like there were only two "hahas" in that entire post!!!...i guess maybe i was feeling kinda tired and sianz last night...Anw, Thanks TeoShuMei! i guess i'm just feeling sian bout studying 5 times a week...but i'll not stress myself out lah...i'm actually feelin kinda relaxed...even though mr soon keeps on emphasizing what "sec4 Year1"...anw, just hope things will get better for me and i'll become less slack and buck up soon...hehe....

So initially, i wanted to blog bout my new class last night...overall, Three Respect turned out to be a pretty cool class...less serious than i expected it to be...and nice classmates too....although i don't really like all the teachers...

Anw, i'm currently sitting beside Eunice now....coz she and Jixin transferred over...Eunice says it feels weird to be sitting beside me...i say it feels weird in terms of proportion *ahem* height...hahas Juz kidding lahz eunice...i know i'm short too =(...

I'm still trying to settle down in 3RP though...but my classmates are fun and cool ppl...so sch's pretty good for me...except for the studying part...i'm currently struggling to keep up wif alot of my work...and having problems wif most subjects...eg Bio's really really confusing with all the chim terms which takes like forever for my mind to absorb...BUt anyway, i guess it takes time for me to adapt to sec3 life...so i hope i'll adapt soon!!!

During the first couple of days in sch...i was extremely quiet...and talked so little even i felt abit weird inside me...i guess it was becoz i wasn't used to a new class and environment yet...

Fortunately, things are starting to get better....i've got to know more ppl and talked and laughed alot more...like alot of crap started coming out of my mouth...and yeah, i started to laugh alot at funny things...and the worse thing is, i even laughed at things which were not funny at all...hahas...sorry to the ppl around me for being so noisy during class...i'm seriously beginning to doubt my sanity...hahas...even though the thing is obviously not funny at all...i dunno why i still laugh so much!! omg! i gotta tell myself to stop talking so much and concentrate in class...eunice says i'm very noisy...but the truth is...i'm being physically abused by her in class...she beats me for no reason and draws on my hand...boohoohoo...hahas..okay JUZ KIDDIN lah!

I still miss life in 2BN though and all my fellow BN classmates...like even though i still crap sometimes and fool around in RP...i really miss being back in 2BN wif all my frens and stuff...like me yurong eunice and michelle met amanda on bus 31 on monday....and when i was wif them i started to crap alot...and aft that me michelle manda and eunice went to kfc to eat and talk ( rongperty couldn't join us=( )...but really, that day was the day i crapped and laughed the most since sch reopened...and that day also kinda brought out my crappy self again...but things are better now lahz...i've started to talk alot in class....and like i said, it takes time to adapt...so i'm keeping my fingers crossed..hahas...

Xinyi and edwin came back on fri to settle the beijing ppt stuff...and aft dat, me shumei and xinyi got to talk alot when walking out of sch...and i was grateful for that day coz i was able to like fa xie abit bout certain problems and stuff...Thanks guys =D....

Tag Replies!

SiHua : hehe Thanks! tagged u back too =)

Eunice: I appreciate your kindness...but really No thanks! i don't need a better one and neither do i like the old one...hahas...u can have ALL for yourself!!!

YuRong : hahas...Thanks Yurong! I know you're a nice person! hahas...and thanks for your encouragement all dis while...i saw u too!! crap again sometime okay!

Manda: hahas...i updated le! Miss ya lots!! Hope everything at VJ's going great! Catch up sometime to gossip again okay!!! hahahs

Janna: Hey Janna!! hahas...i got go online quite frequently one!! except always never see u =(...hehe anw, thanks for tagging me! Love ya too! =D

Zoey: Hey zoey zoey!! hehe...hahas...coz my tagboard is cool mah! hahas...anw, thanks for tagging me! tagged u back too! Cya in sch!! =D

ShuMei: hahas...Thanks =D i'll relax one...i don't think so lahz...ya lessons are really boring lor!! hahas..cya tmr!! I'll laugh throughout the lessons again!! hahas...juz kiddin!

kk...gtg now le...i've been blogging for more than an hour and haven't done my weekend homework yet!! Hopefully, i'll be able to psychic myself out of the holiday mood soon and adapt to sec3 life...

isn't it weird how ppl always end up contradicting themselves...


I apologise for not updating for such a long time...Thanks all for tagging and keeping my stagnent half-dead blog alive =P...anw, this happens to be my first post in 2007...hahas...

The first 2 and a half weeks of sec3 have finally passed...and after this two and a half weeks...I came to the conclusion that Sec3 Life is really really exhausting...having abt 6 hours of lessons per day and taking 8 subjects turned out to be tougher than i thought...

Unfortunately for me, i'm still in the holiday mood...during sec2 even though i slacked frequently,i was still lucky enough to get good results as i pia-ed extremely hard during the exams...and it was tough for me...having only bout 2 hours of sleep the night before the exams due to last minute studying...and forcing my brain to absorb all the info i was reading...it was a feeling of extreme fatigue and ben kui-ness (it doesn't have to be a word as long as u get wad i mean...lolx), wanting to just stop and rest and yet not having any time to....anw, the point is...thus aft streaming i told myself not to slack anymore during sec3 as i really didn't want to experience that desperate feeling again and wanted to "enjoy studying" (2 words quoted from my dad and also something i've been trying to do for more than half of my life but haven't succeeded and probably never will)...But sometimes, i really feel a sense of guilt, and i start to question myself, coz i kinda feel that i don't deserve the results i get...i'm a lucky person i guess....

Seriously, i feel that i'm getting more slack than sec2 now...only 2 and a half weeks have passed...and i did not do homework, slept during class, and didn't pass up assignments as i didn't do them...then again, i feel guilty coz i'm not progressing but going backwards instead...it's not a matter of being kiasu, the point is, i'm concerned about not being able to cope keep up wif my work...no matter how much i tell myself to stop slacking...i still find myself switching on the com. and surfing the net even though i have a huge pile of homework undone...like i told myself today to complete my homework but ended up playing com the whole day...the thing is, i feel really tired aft reaching home every evening...aft studying in sch for like so long, i really dun feel like starting on my work or studying again...somemore, it's really hard to concentrate in class when you've only had 5 hours of sleep the previous night...

I'm not trying to make excuses...but i feel really guilty whenever i tell ppl i'm unable to cope...bcoz it's like i am actually able to complete my homework if i set my mind to it...but i end up wasting my time by slacking instead...and everytime i excuse myself from slacking that day and tell myself to put the next day to better use...i end up slacking again...and time just seems to pass so quickly whenever i need it...anw, i've once again realised how precious sleep is...omg...sleeping rawks!...hahas

Anw, Very sorry for having such a lousy and boring post as my first post of the year....i really intended to blog bout nicer stuff but ended up talking boring crap instead coz i'm kinda confused bout what i'm actualy feeling and typing now...i know it's an extremely super boring post coz i feel so too...really sorry....but anw, i'll continue blogging tmr(hopefully) bout the intial things i wanted to blog abt...coz it's 2.42am now and i wanna sleep...